i can’t wait to be 40. everywhere i turn, i see a lot of insecurities–none more than when i look in the mirror. it’s very disconcerting to be at this age and realize that everyone still deals with the same issues they dealt with a decade ago. when i think about it, i’ve probably only met a handful of people and can only name 2 or 3 at the moment who have enough confidence that i would be comfortable having. the older i get, the more i see that many of the things wrong with the world stem from insecurities people never learned to deal with when they had the chance. sure, it’s better masked but it’s still there. so now that i know this is in me, what do i do?
when i was a junior in high school, i got into a car accident and my mom decided to give me a cell phone in case of any other emergencies from that point on. for the next year, i had a contract with verizon and i hated it. at the time, it was expensive and had very few minutes. the following year, i made the switch to voicestream (now called t-mobile) and i have been a faithful customer ever since. not even the iphone can lure me away from t-mobile’s reasonably priced plans. instead, i had my boyfriend unlock an iphone for me so that i can use it with my service (until it went awol on me).